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[Tuesday, 16th May 2006 at 14.22] |
I don't know what to say, only that this hurts more than having my heart broken by anyone. I don't even know why I feel so bad about it, when it was my choice. I chose to give it up to someone else and I don't know why. Now, i'm regretting everything. But as Er said, I shouldn't regret it because it was my choice anyway, and there would probably be a second chance. I'm hoping there would be a second chance. Oh well.
I miss ricca cause I know she'll know how this feels.
"No one ever gave their best and regretted it,"
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[Saturday, 10th December 2005 at 23.55] |
Just got back from Alabang.. Still in Pauline's house. I don't even know why i'm updating. Haha. This is weird. Was just listening to a really old song..
Hay..
If only.. Haha.
Can't you see?
Just let me know..
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[Tuesday, 20th September 2005 at 11.29] |
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I can't believe it's almost been a year and this thing is still alive. So many things have happened since October last year. Oh wait, hi pauline!! I'm finally updating!! Haha. I guess here are some of the things that have happened.. I am really updating
-moved to a new house. (thank you God! It's nearer finally!)
-had my first valentine this year!! And lost him less than a month later. Haha.
-fell in love with fencing. Again. I think it really is my passion.
"Passion makes people do exceptionale things,"
-had a crush on a gay guy. I don't even think he's gay, but my friend keeps on saying he is. He does wear see through shirts to school. But so what?!
-lost a best friend (this, I still can't believe. That it happened just like that. Over something that was not even supposed to be that big a deal.)
-bought a new one. (my dog Garci, named after Garcilliano! She loves to bite!)
-I am finally learning how to accessorize!
-Went to La Union and tried to surf
-ended up being a landz and doing something else. Haha. Ricca!
-Was lovesick because of the landz. Literally. I thought I had a fever cause I knew I wouldn't see him again. Now when I think about it, it's just funny!
-Went to Baguio just to have dinner, then went back down to La Union at 3 in the morning. Adventure!
-Got tricked into saying sorry to some elves..
-For the first time, got so drunk that I puked without even trying to. I'm proud because I won't do this again. Hopefully.
-Went to Boracay
-went back to eating chocolates and ice cream. It is vurry hard to stop now!
-went ukay ukay shopping in Baguio
-Tried the South Beach diet for 2 days! Haha.
-Got stung by a jelly fish
-Actually wanted someone to pee on my leg. Seriously.
I can't think anymore. I just really wanted to update.
Oh and yes, How come so many people think i'm a baby? I'm kind of sick of it. I can understand things you know. I can be mature. I'm not stupid.
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[Wednesday, 13th October 2004 at 19.08] |
I was sitting beside this old Japanese guy in a lobby in Hong Kong, and he got into a conversation with my parents and I listened. He was travelling alone because he had no wife and no kids. When he was younger he had girlfriends in Hong Kong and in the Philippines and he didn't end up with any of them. At 85, he still has to travel alone.
It scares me to think that some people really end up alone. Not everyone finds their someone. Why?
Anyway, going to Pangasisnan with the fencers tomorrow. I'm excited.
Er!! Easy lang!! Remember what I said!!! I miss you already. Have fun in Hawaii!!
Other wonders, magparamdam namag ng onti!! I wanna see you guys already!!
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[Saturday, 2nd October 2004 at 20.22] |
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Wow. I can’t believe I’m really updating. This is really funny cause I don’t even like using the computer, but I have to admit updating’s a bit addictive! Haha.
Saw Maics, Ana Pauline, Jan and Roxymae. Watched Raising Helen. It was really nice. Really nice. I didn’t cry but I really liked the movie. After the movie we ate again and after eating a piece of apple pie. Woah. I wanted to be bulimic. My tummy was so painful, empacho!
Going to Corregidor tomorrow. So exciting! It’s my first time, I’ve never been there. I’m really bringing a camera and I’m taking pictures of myself everywhere! Woohoo!! Haha.
This is all nonsense. Can’t believe I’m posting this Oh well.
Cherish the thought
Of always having you here by my side (oh baby I)
Cherish the joy
You keep bringing it into my life (I'm always singing it)
Cherish your strength
You got the power to make me feel good (and baby I)
Perish the thought
Of ever leaving, I never would
I'm loving this song now. They keep on playing it. I'll sing it to someone, in like 5 years? Eek!! haha.
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[Friday, 1st October 2004 at 21.01] |
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I only have two more tests and one last paper to go. After that, sem break here I come!!
Today was okay. I felt so responsible! My prof actually wanted me to inform my classmates about something for the field trip and I felt like he put me in charge, even if he really didn’t. Basta, I just feel so good, because I just realized that I can actually change myself in UP. I mean nobody knows I wasn’t a really good student in Poveda. I’m really going to be better in UP, at least I’ll try to be. Really going to study second sem and be more responsible. Wow. It really is a new beginning. I just realized.
Tomorrow, I’ll see my abarkadz!! Yay. Was supposed to see them today, but was really tired. I feel like I haven’t seen them or spoken to them in such a long time. So, i’m excited for tomorrow.
Good luck everyone!! Exams, tests, whatever!! Good luck!!
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[Thursday, 30th September 2004 at 8.52] |
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This week has been tiring. It all started last Saturday, I don't even know if I should still be happy about that one. Last night I went to the hall and my coach said something that someone told him and it's just really bad. I didn't want to listen but the person who said it actually matters. I asked my coach what I had to do about it, he just said to prove him wrong. How can I do that? I really want to prove him wrong. I really really do. I love this sport. I never thought i'd love something this much to the point that it actually brings me to tears. I want to have fun, no more pressure, but it's so hard. I know the only pressure should come from myself and not from anyone else. I don't know what to do.
"Even if you look like a kangaroo, it's okay. Just as long as you score,"
Haha. I really should stop thinking about what other people say about me. They're all just bored and they have no life.
There's this person ive been waiting to see for a week and when I finally see this person, this person doesn't even talk to me. Urgh. Really fun.
My lola's birthday today!! Guess I should be happy about that. She's still alive and she's still here. Thank you God.
Thank you not just for that but for everything else.
Class is at 2:30 today. My first and only class!! yay.
btw, does anyone know a cheaper way to get to Corregidor for 9 people? Please!!!
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[Wednesday, 14th July 2004 at 7.42] |
wow, i'm writing again. I don't really know what to write, i'm really pissed. All my Boracay pictures are gone. No more memories. Well, we still have Pauline's pictures but it would have been better if we had my pictures too. I'm sad.
After a month in UP, I have to say that I'm still thankful that I study there. Even if it's almost always hot and even if there are times when I have to be a loner and eve if sometimes I find it so hard to adapt to a few things. I'm still loving it. It's all so new to me, and i love the fact that I actually have friends there already. Was just weird. The other day, I felt so alone and I really wanted to see my wonders or my Poveda classmates. Fortunately, I had a class and I just forgot about it. I did tell my classmate about it, I don't think she understood me.
I really miss my classmates! I just remembered what Adie sent me on my first day. It's still saved in my inbox. I'm trying to be a better student here!! nagtataas ng bandera ng colleagueas!! Hay.. When will I see them again?
Don't think I'm making any sense here. I'm just typing and typing. Still happy.
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[Friday, 4th June 2004 at 13.50] |
Im here at the office, I am so bored. A certain someone did not show up for our spa thing. hmm.. haha. just kidding rox.
Anyway, i've been wanting to update but everytime I typed something it always ended up so..weird. I wanted to write something about our Boracay trip but I felt like I would lose something if I did. Okay,that's weird huh? But I just want to say, that it was extremely..hmm..wonderful. Not just because of where we were, but also because of everyone we met. Except, haha. okay fine won't put that in. haha.
Yesterday I found out that I had to be in UP on Monday at 6:30 in the morning. Woah! I don't know how I'm going to do that. Oh well, it's UP!! I'm still happy. I'm loving it. This is my last weekend, I wanna do something special, but I really can't think of anything. Wonders?
I wanna see someone! hmm..
Okay, I have to go. Sorry Just wanted to update.
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[Sunday, 23rd May 2004 at 19.12] |
Just came from Tagaytay and after that heard mass at Christ the King. I'm tired. I have Er's debut tomorrow and after that Boracay with my two wonders Len and Pauline. A bit excited about it and a bit scared cause of the stuff we were talking about! haha. Oh, and I don't want to pack!! i'm too lazy!!
Anyway, just realized how ,much I miss talking to my God. I felt wonderful there just talking to him, though I have to admit it was a monologue because I wasn't listening, just talking. Very bad. Instead of listening to the priest I was listening to this little boy behind me play with his spider man doll, whoops, forget what you call those plastic things. But still because of that I remembered a few things,it's always going to be me and my God. I'm just scared that going to college might detach me from a few things. But i'll try to remember that He is always there with me. Always.
So happy that I got to spend the weekend with my friends!! so happy!! Roxy, that was a beautiful dinner. Perfect location. Even if it was a bit far, it was beautiful, thank you. So, I'm gonna go pack now. I am so lazy, I don't wanna do this. Maybe i'll just wear a black bathing suit and wear that every day. haha. just kidding.
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[Tuesday, 18th May 2004 at 14.55] |
Went back to UP today to give all my papers, and I got into the course I wanted!! im so happy.
Anyway, yesterday was really fun! I saw someone, and I have to say that I kind of regret some stuff that I did. Why does he have to be so..woah? Urgh!! But as er said, don't regret anything.So i'm trying not to! Then, I saw him, dani knows who! eek. After that I went to the infirmary and the physical examination was a bit embarrassing! Haha. Wont put the details here. I hope I never have to do that again. Im still so excited about going to school. Maybe i'll be a nerd or something. Or maybe not.
well, here I am sitting behind my sister.Bored but the whole school thing is making me so happy!! haha.
Oh ya, was thinking about our trip to bora, I just hope the rain stops..please!!
Oh, and Nika! welcome back!! Also pauline and Len,hope you guys enjoyed your days!make me kwento!!try to update again later.
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[Saturday, 15th May 2004 at 12.49] |
okay, so this is my first entry and I really don't know what to say. oh ya, thanks pauline for making it for me. it's so pink!! just what I wanted!! yay..
so, I guess that's it for today, nothing has happened!!
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